Fallen 1.0

I've decided this for myself. And as you continue to read this letter you just found your wondering where the hell I am, and why I would be writing you such a pointless letter when I can just tell you straight to your face, but I can't. Later on you'll also be cussing yourself, blaming yourself, thinking this was all your fault, but I assure you, and as I said, I've decided this for myself. This is not of your doing. 
Everything has dragged me down to this infinite fall, I cannot return to the surface, it is nearly impossible. 

I'm helpless.

You can't help me anymore.
And I am thankful for everything you have done for me. For saving me. For keeping up with me, for being my friend.
I still don't understand why you did more than you had to; I still don't understand why you were so hard and unkind, so cold at times, why you never really told me how you felt, but I guess I understand, in a way, your just difficult....difficult to break.

I've decided to take my leave since I seem like such a burden to you. I am of no importance, I'm just holding you back. If you'd get hurt or...die....I would never forgive myself. I'd know it'd be my fault, I'm the only one that is so attached to you. It's hard for me to stay away when knowing you have nobody, but I need to stop being this way, stop getting so attached to you. I need to be away or we'll both get hurt too easily. I will avoid those feelings and settle for nothingness. I hope to become more aware of my surroundings and stay alive, for my mother, for you. I hope you do the same.

Don't die yet. I know you won't even if I didn't tell you. Never give up. I know you never will. Never forget this, I hope you never forget.